It's time.

 


The weekend is over, and a much needed mental break is coming to a close. The past week is a blur- but I sort of prefer it that way. Unfortunately, I missed out on every vigil, some because I was working, others, I just couldn't bring myself to go. Some I didn't know were happening. I didn't go to the funerals either, although I thought about it.

Since "that day", I've worked all but one day, that being the day after. I needed that day to decompress, but I was back to work the following day, and every day for the next week. But when this past Friday came around, I decided what I needed most was to be away from Wake County and everything that had to do with "that day". I was not successful. I found myself reading FB, the news and watching pieces of Off. Torres's funeral. I'm sorry if I let anyone down by not going- I know my team was depending on me to participate in the Honor Guard. I hope you understand, I just couldn't.
I'm thankful for these past 3 days, but I wish there was more time. I'm thankful for time with my family and my church family. Thank you for your patience with me- I know I haven't been easy to get along with. I'll get better, I promise.

Tomorrow, is business as usual. Tomorrow, I plan to open my eyes with a brand new outlook. It's time to try to put this horrific event to bed and heal. I've got an Almighty God, an incredible family, and a circle of friends who want Patti back. I'm ready to be back, too.
Thank you for your prayers and for reaching out. Don't stop. It's good to know you've got my back! Know I've got yours- always.
For my EMS and First Responder family- be safe. 911 dispatchers, stay strong! We got this- together!

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